tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-166511072024-03-28T21:29:15.478-06:00A Wing And A PrayerBecause that is all we have going for us.Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.comBlogger1325125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-71213418576924567992024-03-28T16:00:00.001-06:002024-03-28T16:00:00.132-06:00The Not-So-Routine Routine<div style="text-align: left;">It is a familiar routine. At least it should be. But it will never be.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Tonight marks the beginning of Christianity's "High Holy Days", the Pascal Triduum. The echoes of the "Hosannas" heard on Palm Sunday no longer reverberate. For the next three days we commemorate the events leading to the Resurrection of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ: His Last Supper, agony in the Garden of Gethsemane, betrayal, two trials, Via Dolorosa, crucifixion, death, and burial.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">We know about them, but do we really know them? How has the central mystery of our Faith formed us? How have we grown in our belief over the past Lenten season? We can and should spend our lifetimes meditating on these wonderous deeds, integrating them into our being. We are called to be holy, to be more as we were created, in the image and likeness of God; to be more Christ-like, more like the Father Who is perfect, Who we have seen because we have seen Jesus and he is one with the Father; to be more like the Trinity Who is love. All of this is encapsulated in the Pascal Mystery.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The Church's liturgy reflects this. There are not three separate celebrations but one continuous act of worship. Notice if you attend Holy Thursday's Evening Mass of the Lord's Supper and/or Good Friday's Liturgy of the Lord's Passion there are no words of dismissal. As His disciples, we are to follow Him in His final hours and keep vigil as He lays in the tomb to see if after three days the Temple has been rebuilt, that He has freely laid down His life and freely has taken it up again, either at the Easter Vigil in the Holy Night of Easter and/or Easter Sunday: The Resurrection of the Lord.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The Upper Room is ready. So will be the Cross. So will be the Tomb. Are we?</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The invitation awaits.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">"Come and see."</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-80000630347674600992024-03-28T15:00:00.001-06:002024-03-28T15:00:00.123-06:00Seven Last Words: Wanting<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: red;">"I thirst."</span> (John 19:28)</span><br />
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Was this an echo of another conversation Jesus had earlier in the Gospel of St. John, when He asks the Samaritan woman to give Him water from Jacob's well? No one overheard that exchange; remember, the disciples were returning as she was leaving. But, this short statement hearkens back to that incident.<br />
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The entire story (John 4:4-42) has hints of the Passion. Jesus and the Samaritan woman met at about noon, the same time when Jesus was fixed to the Cross. While she wondered if He was greater than Jacob, recall the crowd who wondered if He was greater than Elijah. He was still hoping people would recognize Him, just as He began to reveal Himself to her (John 4:10). Her coming to believe echoed the words of the Centurion. But the greatest clue was in His words to her as she spoke of where true worship of God would take place, seemingly as a foreshadowing of what was to come (John 4:19-24).<br />
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Jesus has had nothing to drink since the Last Supper. His scourging drained much blood. His carrying the Cross sapped what little strength He was conserving. He had to be severely dehydrated. Yes, He thirsted.<br />
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But not for water. I have read somewhere His thirst upon the Cross is for the salvation of all. But, is it also possible that His human nature was thirsting to see the living God?<br />
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O God, you are my God whom I seek; for your my flesh pines and my soul thirsts like the earth, parched, lifeless and without water.<br />
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Jesus, in His life and in His death, has an unquenchable desire to draw all to Him. Soon, it would be sated.<br />
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Originally posted 4/13/2006.<br />
Re-posted 4/5/2007.<br />
Re-posted 3/20/2008.<br />
Re-posted 4/9/2009.<br />
Re-posted 4/1/2010.<br />
Re-posted 4/21/2011.<br />
Re-posted 4/5/2012.<br />
Re-posted 3/28/2013.<br />
Re-posted 4/17/2014.<br />
Re-posted 4/2/2015.<br />
Re-posted 3/24/2016.<br />
Re-posed 4/13/2017.<br />
Re-posted 3/29/2018. <br />
Re-posted 4/18/2019.<div>Re-posted 4/9/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 4/1/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 4/14/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 4/6/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-59951292316478392152024-03-27T15:00:00.001-06:002024-03-27T15:00:00.247-06:00Seven Last Words: Gifts Of Others
<span style="font-size: x-small;"><div style="text-align: center;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgR0COzqBJ5TzWXh_WoHmIUEQTRc2umd3ncZhHP_cV0GgatIaww0qff1R17LTEOBcMPtaALZAptQR3tfcxwNL_jAG3WeSzjJDIbrGKfzD3wpGNEJh7008cKpTZ0N42stDva3r-2/s320/Cristo+crucificado,+de+Francisco+de+Goya.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="320" data-original-width="188" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgR0COzqBJ5TzWXh_WoHmIUEQTRc2umd3ncZhHP_cV0GgatIaww0qff1R17LTEOBcMPtaALZAptQR3tfcxwNL_jAG3WeSzjJDIbrGKfzD3wpGNEJh7008cKpTZ0N42stDva3r-2/s320/Cristo+crucificado,+de+Francisco+de+Goya.jpg" width="188" /></a></div><br /><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>Crucified Christ</i>, by Francisco Goya</div></span>
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Although other accounts of the Passion mention other people near the Cross, it was the Blessed Virgin Mary and the disciple whom Jesus loved who had the courage to draw as close as possible in His agony. A love greater than their fear, they stood in the place of Adam and Eve, in a sense. In proxy of all humanity.<br />
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Jesus, in His humanity, would have never remembered the words of Simeon. Jesus, in His divinity, would have known them intensely. I don't think it is possible to determine who's heart was more broken at this moment; between the Son and the Mother, they both had to be aching infinitely.<br />
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Yet, in this moment of incredible anguish, love still abounds.<br />
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Jesus gave His Mother His adopted "children", those who worship in Spirit and Truth, those who Love as He demonstrated time after time, those who observe the Great Commandments, those who He has saved.<br />
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Jesus gave St. John, as the representative of His Church at this moment, the greatest example of what holiness is, the sign of what His grace can do in us, the model of what saying "yes" to Him means, the true meaning of what humanity is.<br />
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No small gifts.<br />
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Originally posted 4/11/2006.<br />
Re-posted 4/3/2007.<br />
Re-posted 3/18/2008.<br />
Re-posted 4/7/2009.<br />
Re-posted 3/30/2010.<br />
Re-posted 4/19/2011.<br />
Re-posted 4/3/2012.<br />
Re-posted 3/26/2013.<br />
Re-posted 4/15/2014.<br />
Re-posted 3/31/2015.<br />
Re-posted 3/22/2016.<br />
Re-posted 4/11/2017.<br />
Re-posted 3/27/2018. <br />
Re-posted 4/16/2019.<div>Re-posted 4/7/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 3/31/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 4/13/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 4/5/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-70873607256765868122024-03-26T15:00:00.001-06:002024-03-26T15:00:00.131-06:00Seven Last Words: Utter Abandonement<a href="http://www.wga.hu/art/v/velazque/03/0307vela.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://www.wga.hu/art/v/velazque/03/0307vela.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 200px;" /></a><br />
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<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: red;">"Eli, Eli, lema sabacthani?" ("My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken me?")</span> (Matthew 27:46b; cf. Psalm 22:2) </span><br />
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When the crowd heard this from Jesus, they responded by saying He was invoking Elijah. They must have forgotten Him saying there was Someone greater than Elijah amongst them. They also must have forgotten this was the opening line of a Psalm surely heard at times in their synagogues.<br />
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While all words in the Bible lead to the Word, some more than others point directly to Him. Psalm 22 is a case in point. Still a Teacher, still calling out to Israel to see Him as He truly is--their redeemer, Jesus leaves no stone unturned as His humanity begins to drain away. Indeed, as He said earlier in His ministry, this Scripture passage is fulfilled in your hearing.<br />
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Yet, how eerily these words echo in Heaven as well as on earth. A member of the Trinity, a union of Perfect Love, wondering out loud if He is no longer part of Them. Has God rejected Himself? The Begotten Son, forgotten? The Beloved, unloved? We can't fathom it.<br />
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Such is the Paschal Mystery. We can find the paradoxes. There are times when we seek answers to those contradictory questions. But, as Fr. John Powell, SJ, wrote in several of his books, we need to seek not peace of mind, but rather peace of heart. "Then God's own peace, which is beyond all understanding, will stand guard over your hearts and minds, in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:7)<br />
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Perhaps, Jesus thought of another passage to help His align His will to the Father's in this time of seemingly utter abandonment. It is a quote to quiet our souls and asks us to trust in the One Who is worthy of that trust. Maybe, just maybe, it helped Him in this moment.<br />
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"Be still, and know that I am God."<br />
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Originally posted 4/12/2006.<br />
Re-posted 4/5/2007.<br />
Re-posted 3/19/2008.<br />
Re-posted 4/8/2009.<br />
Re-posted 3/31/2010.<br />
Re-posted 4/20/2011.<br />
Re-posted 4/4/2012.<br />
Re-posted 3/27/2013.<br />
Re-posted 4/16/2014.<br />
Re-posted 4/1/2015.<br />
Re-posted 3/23/2016.<br />
Re-posted 4/12/2017.<br />
Re-posted 3/28/2018. <br />
Re-posted 4/17/2019.<div>Re-posted 4/8/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 3/30/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 4/13/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 4/4/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-10565068637817323002024-03-25T15:00:00.001-06:002024-03-25T15:00:00.241-06:00Seven Last Words: The Promise<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: red;">"Amen I say to thee: This day thou shalt be with me in paradise."</span> (Luke 23:43)</span><br />
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One of the thieves crucified with Jesus, the other being traditionally known as Gestas; Dismas is the one who rebuked the other, and asked for Christ's blessing.<br />
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An old legend from an Arabic infancy gospel says that when the Holy Family were running to Egypt, they were set upon by a band of thieves including Dismas and Gestas. One of the highwaymen realized there was something different, something special about them, and ordered his fellow bandits to leave them alone; this thief was Dismas.</blockquote>
While St. Joseph taught Him the skills of carpentry, Jesus was actually a farmer. Recall the Parable of the Seeds, the need for harvesters, the call to die to self in order to be fruitful. While He was very familiar with wood (first the Manger and now the Cross), He came to reap and gather the most precious crop of all--souls.<br />
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Seeds of grace are what He planted. Some sprouted quickly (St. Paul). Some needed nurturing (the Samaritan woman at the well). Some matured with the help of others (St. Augustine, thanks to St. Monica). Some died on the vine (Judas). Now, one which had laid dormant for some 30 years blossoms.<br />
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The Church teaches it is never too late to repent. Salvation is close at hand when sincerely sought.<br />
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Originally posted 4/10/2006.<br />
Re-posted 4/2/2007.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2008.<br />
Re-posted 4/6/2009.<br />
Re-posted 3/29/2010.<br />
Re-posted 4/18/2011.<br />
Re-posted 4/2/2012.<br />
Re-posted 3/25/2013.<br />
Re-posted 4/14/2014.<br />
Re-posted 3/30/2015.<br />
Re-posted 3/21/2016.<br />
Re-posted 4/10/2017.<br />
Re-posted 3/26/2018. <br />
Re-posted 4/15/2019.<div>Re-posted 4/6/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 3/29/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 4/11/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 4/3/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-45153342977081918942024-03-24T15:00:00.001-06:002024-03-24T15:00:00.235-06:00Seven Last Words: Lacking Knowing<a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/e/e1/Bernardo_Daddi_002.jpg/210px-Bernardo_Daddi_002.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/e/e1/Bernardo_Daddi_002.jpg/210px-Bernardo_Daddi_002.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 200px;" /></a><br />
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<span style="color: red; font-weight: bold;">"Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do."</span> <span style="font-weight: bold;">(Luke 23:34)</span><br />
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One has to wonder how many times this thought crossed the mind of Jesus during His ministry before He uttered it at His crucifixion. Certainly not when people converted upon encountering Him, whether by His words or deeds. Certainly not when people asked Him in faith for something. And certainly not when He showed forgiveness through His words and deeds.<br />
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Yet, one will find example after example of those who "know not what they do." The Scribes and Pharasees debating Him. The rich young man walking away from His invitation. James and John asking for their seats. The crowds shouting their "Hosanna". Peter--well, pick an incident.<br />
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Judas Iscariot. Caiaphas. Herod. Pontius Pilate.<br />
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We, when we sin.<br />
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Yes, there are degrees of culpability. But, because of Original Sin, there is damage done to our wills and intellects. And it is that damage that does not allow us to truly realize in the very core of our being what our sinfulness does to us. It is in that sense we "know not what we do." It is the war within us mentioned by St. Paul.<br />
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Yet, is that not what metanoia is all about? Is that not why we, "with the help of Thy Grace," seek to uproot in our souls that which separates us from God? Is that not why we examine our consciences and seek the Sacrament of Reconciliation, to continue to strengthen what has been weakened?<br />
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It is the level of sanctity asked of us ("Be therefore perfect as your Heavenly Father is perfect."). It is the level of sanctity achieved by the saints. It is a level of sanctity we can have. The Son has asked the Father with the Spirit that this may be. It continues its fruition when we seek it.<br />
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Originally posted 4/9/2006.<br />
Re-posted 4/1/2007.<br />
Re-posted 3/16/2008.<br />
Re-posted 4/5/2009.<br />
Re-posted 3/28/2010.<br />
Re-posted 4/17/2011.<br />
Re-posted 4/1/2012.<br />
Re-posted 3/24/2013<br />
Re-posted 4/13/2014.<br />
Re-posted 3/29/2015.<br />
Re-posted 3/20/2016.<br />
Re-posted 4/9/2017.<br />
Re-posted 3/25/2018. <br />
Re-posted 4/14/2019.<div>Re-posted 4/5/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 3/28/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 4/10/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 4/2/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-8948015264255754242024-03-24T07:00:00.002-06:002024-03-24T07:00:00.131-06:00Everlasting "Last Words"<div style="text-align: left;">Once again, Holy Week is upon us. We are reminded of our own fickleness and indifference toward our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ at the Mass of Palm Sunday of the Lord's Passion, where the joyous cries of <br />"Hosanna" during the procession do an abrupt 180 degree turn with the tone of the proclamation of the Liturgy of the Word, culminating with our gleeful screams of "Crucify Him" during the proclamation of the Passion narrative. Isn't our consistent inconsistency amazing?</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">So we now spend the next seven days contemplating what we have done to Him by "my fault, my fault, my most grievous fault". To hopefully aid in that meditation, I offer my very humble thoughts on the "Seven Last Words", the final sentences uttered upon the Cross by the Word made flesh. May they be a source of inspiration to you, either on their own or as a departure to other more eloquent reflections.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">His hour has come.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Later today.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Take the time to ponder and wonder.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-69386808486640704482024-03-19T19:00:00.002-06:002024-03-19T19:00:00.130-06:00PM: Special Edition--Solemnity Of St. JosephFoster Father of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Patron Saint of the Universal Church. Terror of demons. The true strong, silent type. Invoked to avoid a sudden and unprovided death. (And my middle name.) What's not to like about the husband of the Blessed Virgin Mary? We now interrupt our regularly scheduled Lenten penances to bring you these brief reflections:<div></div><blockquote><div>The righteous man shall flourish like the palm tree; he shall grow up like the cedar of Lebanon; for he is planted in the house of the Lord, in the courts of our God.</div><div><br /></div><div>V. It is good to give praise to the Lord; and to sing in honor of your name.</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: right;"><i>Ps. 91:13-14; V. 2</i></div></blockquote><div></div><div>Here the word "righteous" is synonymous with the word "just", an adjective commonly associated with St. Joseph (cf. Matt. 1:19). The introit also uses the cedar tree to indicate how strong he, and we, are if our being is rooted in God.</div><div></div><blockquote><div>O Lord, you have gone ahead to meet him with goodly blessings; you have placed a crown of precious stones on his head.</div><div><br /></div><div>V. He asked you for life, and you granted him length of days for ever and ever.</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: right;"><i>Ps. 20:4; V. 5</i></div></blockquote><div>In the Gradual, we note what goodly blessings were bestowed on him in being the head of the Holy Family, staring with Jesus and Mary. Tradition holds his length of days ended just before the start of Jesus' public mission. And how great is his reward in Heaven because of this vocation.</div><div></div><blockquote><div>Blessed is the man who fears the Lord; he shall delight exceedingly in his commandments.</div><div><br /></div><div>V. His seed shall be mighty upon earth; the descendants of the righteous will be blessed.</div><div><br /></div><div>V. Glory and wealth are in his house; and his righteousness endures for ever.</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: right;"><i>Ps. 111:1-3</i></div></blockquote><div></div><div>The Tract acknowledges, "The beginning of wisdom is fear of the Lord, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." (Wisdom 9:10) Joseph's knowledge of the Law through the Word and his just application of it brought him many graces. Those who emulate him as well as Jesus are the mighty; their glory, wealth, and justness will far outlive them on earth, but not in Heaven.</div><div></div><blockquote><div>My fidelity and my mercy are with him; and in my name shall his horn be exalted.</div><div><br /></div><div>Ps. 88:25</div></blockquote><div></div><div>The Psalm from which this Offertory was taken (88:2-38) speak of Jesus directly. Since He had to come from the House of David, Joseph was chosen to graph the True Vine to this branch. It is through Christ that Joseph's name is exalted.</div><div></div><blockquote><div>Joseph, son of David, fear not to receive Mary as your wife; for that which is conceived in her comes from the Holy Spirit.</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: right;"><i>Matt. 1:20</i></div></blockquote><div></div><div>One of two options of Communion Antiphons, connected with the same Gospel proclamation. Happy are those who obey God, when the Father with the Spirit sends the Son. Joseph clearly received all the messages from the angel and, with all the trust attributive to Abraham, was blessed by doing the will of God.</div><div></div><blockquote><div>My son, why have you treated us so? Your father and I have been anxiously looking for you. How is it that your were seeking me? Did you not know that I must be about my Father's business?</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: right;"><i>Lk. 2:48-50</i></div></blockquote><div></div><div>The other option is associated with the finding of the Christ Child in the Temple (the other Gospel proclamation), just as it is with the Feast of the Holy Family. Jesus, as son of Joseph, was obedient to him on earth just as He was obedient to His Heavenly Father. Christ was about His Father's business in both His human and Divine natures. With the help of St. Joseph, may we be as well.</div><div><br /></div><div>Most chaste heart of St. Joseph, intercede for us.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-42669225827271013242024-03-19T17:30:00.001-06:002024-03-19T17:30:00.134-06:00Imploring The Saint Of The Day<div>One of the original six litanies approved for public use by the Holy See prior to 2013, how appropriate it is to recite it on this day.</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">++++++++++</div><div><br /></div><div><b>V. </b>Lord, have mercy.</div><div><b>R. </b>Lord, have mercy.</div><div><b>V. </b>Christ, have mercy.</div><div><b>R. </b>Christ, have mercy.</div><div><b>V. </b>Lord, have mercy.</div><div><b>R. </b>Lord, have mercy</div><div><b><br /></b></div><div><b>V. </b>God our Father in heaven.</div><div><b>R. </b>Have mercy on us.</div><div><b>V. </b>God the Son, Redeemer of the world.</div><div><b>R. </b>Have mercy on us.</div><div><b>V. </b>God the Holy Spirit.</div><div><b>R. </b>Have mercy on us.</div><div><b>V. </b>Holy Trinity, one God.</div><div><b>R. </b>Have mercy on us.</div><div><br /></div><div><b>V. </b>Holy Mary,</div><div><b>R. </b>Pray for us. (Repeat after each invocation.)</div><div><br /></div><div>St. Joseph </div><div>Noble son of the House of David </div><div>Light of patriarchs </div><div>Husband of the Mother of God </div><div>Guardian of the Virgin </div><div>Foster father of the Son of God </div><div>Faithful guardian of Christ </div><div>Head of the Holy Family </div><div>Joseph, chaste and just </div><div>Joseph, prudent and brave </div><div>Joseph, obedient and loyal</div><div>Pattern of patience </div><div>Lover of poverty</div><div>Model of workers </div><div>Example to parents </div><div style="text-align: left;">Guardian of virgins</div><div>Pillar of family life </div><div>Comfort of the troubled </div><div>Hope of the sick </div><div>Patron of the dying</div><div>Terror of evil spirits </div><div>Protector of the Church </div><div><br /></div><div><b>V. </b>Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world</div><div><b>R. </b>Spare us. O Lord</div><div><b>V. </b>Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world</div><div><b>R. </b>Graciously hear us. O Lord.</div><div><b>V. </b>Lamb of God, you take away the sins of the world</div><div><b>R. </b>Have mercy on us</div><div><br /></div><div><b>V. </b>God made him master of his household.</div><div><b>R. </b>And put him in charge of all that he owned.</div><div><br /></div><div>Let us pray:</div><div><br /></div><div>O God, who in your inexpressible providence were pleased to choose Saint Joseph as spouse of the most holy Mother of your Son, grant, we pray, that we, who revere him as our protector on earth, may</div><div>be worthy of his heavenly intercession. Through Christ our Lord. Amen. </div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-1142606578842671522024-03-17T08:00:00.001-06:002024-03-17T08:00:00.133-06:00St. Patrick's Breastplate<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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From New Advent, the following is a literal translation from the old Irish text.<br />
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I bind to myself today:<br />
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The strong virtue of the Invocation of the Trinity:<br />
I believe the Trinity in the Unity<br />
The Creator of the Universe.</blockquote>
I bind to myself today:<br />
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The virtue of the Incarnation of Christ with His Baptism,<br />
The virtue of His crucifixion with His burial,<br />
The virtue of His Resurrection with His Ascension,<br />
The virtue of His coming on the Judgement Day.</blockquote>
I bind to myself today:<br />
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The virtue of the love of seraphim,<br />
In the obedience of angels,<br />
In the hope of resurrection unto reward,<br />
In prayers of Patriarchs,<br />
In predictions of Prophets,<br />
In preaching of Apostles,<br />
In faith of Confessors,<br />
In purity of holy Virgins,<br />
In deeds of righteous men.</blockquote>
I bind to myself today:<br />
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The power of Heaven,<br />
The light of the sun,<br />
The brightness of the moon,<br />
The splendour of fire,<br />
The flashing of lightning,<br />
The swiftness of wind,<br />
The depth of sea,<br />
The stability of earth,<br />
The compactness of rocks.</blockquote>
I bind to myself today:<br />
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God's Power to guide me,<br />
God's Might to uphold me,<br />
God's Wisdom to teach me,<br />
God's Eye to watch over me,<br />
God's Ear to hear me,<br />
God's Word to give me speech,<br />
God's Hand to guide me,<br />
God's Way to lie before me,<br />
God's Shield to shelter me,<br />
God's Host to secure me,<br />
Against the snares of demons,<br />
Against the seductions of vices,<br />
Against the lusts of nature,<br />
Against everyone who meditates injury to me,<br />
Whether far or near,<br />
Whether few or with many.</blockquote>
I invoke today all these virtues:<br />
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Against every hostile merciless power<br />
Which may assail my body and my soul,<br />
Against the incantations of false prophets,<br />
Against the black laws of heathenism,<br />
Against the false laws of heresy,<br />
Against the deceits of idolatry,<br />
Against the spells of women, and smiths, and druids,<br />
Against every knowledge that binds the soul of man.</blockquote>
Christ, protect me today:<br />
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Against every poison, against burning,<br />
Against drowning, against death-wound,<br />
That I may receive abundant reward.</blockquote>
Christ with me, Christ before me,<br />
Christ behind me, Christ within me,<br />
Christ beneath me, Christ above me,<br />
Christ at my right, Christ at my left,<br />
Christ in the fort,<br />
Christ in the chariot seat,<br />
Christ in the poop [deck],<br />
Christ in the heart of everyone who thinks of me,<br />
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks to me,<br />
Christ in every eye that sees me,<br />
Christ in every ear that hears me.<br />
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I bind to myself today:<br />
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The strong virtue of an invocation of the Trinity:<br />
I believe the Trinity in the Unity<br />
The Creator of the Universe.</blockquote>
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Originally posted 3/17/2006.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2009.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2010.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2011.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2012.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2013.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2014.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2015.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2016.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2017.<br />
Re-posted 3/17/2018. <br />
Re-posted 3/17/2019.<div>Re-posted 3/17/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 3/17/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 3/17/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 3/17/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-15551121113836168582024-03-08T22:30:00.000-07:002024-03-08T22:30:00.125-07:00In Memory Of...<div style="text-align: center;"><b>Helen Marie (Sheely) Rolling</b></div><div style="text-align: center;">Born: March 1, 1939</div><div style="text-align: center;">Died: March 8, 2020</div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>Requiescat In Pace.</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i>**********</i></div><div style="text-align: center;"><i><br /></i></div><div style="text-align: left;">Originally posted 3/8/2021.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Re-posted 3/8/2022.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Re-posted 3/8/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-82754083096949346492024-03-01T08:00:00.001-07:002024-03-01T08:00:00.135-07:00Question For The Month<p>Since Easter falls on the last Sunday of the month this year, does that mean March enters like the Lion of Judah and exits like the Lamb of God? </p>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-55779532550680767682024-03-01T07:00:00.001-07:002024-03-01T07:00:00.173-07:00March 2024 Morning Offering Prayer Intention<div style="text-align: left;">Here is the intention for this month when prayer the Morning Offering:</div><p><b style="font-family: "Open Sans";"></b></p><blockquote><span style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Open Sans"; font-size: 16px; font-weight: 700; text-align: center;">For the Martyrs of Our Day, Witnesses to Christ. </span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Open Sans"; font-size: 16px; text-align: center;">We pray that those who risk their lives for the Gospel in various parts of the world inflame the Church with their courage and missionary enthusiasm.</span></blockquote><div style="text-align: left;">A reflection for this intention can be found <a href="https://popesprayerusa.net/2024/02/29/for-new-martyrs/">here</a>.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-42728634344258231952024-02-14T12:00:00.001-07:002024-02-14T12:00:00.146-07:00An Early Call To Repentence<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/589b59176b8f5b240ceece4d/1517264340338-4XKC2Z5526W7OND9FWUJ/0c01e44ac7b025a9758c148cc4057221_the-elder-scrolls-v-skyrim-ash-wednesday-clipart-free_489-500.png" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="500" data-original-width="489" height="320" src="https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/589b59176b8f5b240ceece4d/1517264340338-4XKC2Z5526W7OND9FWUJ/0c01e44ac7b025a9758c148cc4057221_the-elder-scrolls-v-skyrim-ash-wednesday-clipart-free_489-500.png" width="313" /></a></div><div><br /></div>Ready or not, Lent is here.<p></p>
<div>Yes, it seems to have come unannounced (because it is rare to hear the Proclamation of Easter and the Moveable Feasts at Epiphany). Yes, it seems we just celebrated the Christmas Season (because there were only five Sundays between Epiphany and Ash Wednesday this year). Yes, because it "conflicts" with Valentine's Day (and the Feast of Ss. Cyril and Methodius). Yes, because we are only in the middle of February.</div><div><br /></div><div>Remember how long a thousand years is in God's eye (cf. Psalm 90:4).</div><div><br /></div><div>Now is the acceptable time to rend your hearts and remove the speck from your eye. The Church has graciously set aside the next forty days for us to draw closer to God. With prayer, fasting, and almsgiving we have the opportunity to be refined like gold in fire</div><div><br /></div><div>How can we, the People of God, become holier during this time so as to fulfill our baptismal promises better? This is the focus of Lent. From the tried and true to something we wanted to try, our spiritual disciplines now have more direction and purpose.</div><div><br /></div><div>The challenge is once again before us.</div><div><br /></div><div>Accept the grace of God and use it to become more of “'a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people of his own, so that you may announce the praises' of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light." (cf. 1 Peter 2:9)</div><div><br /></div><div>Time's a wasting.</div><div><br /></div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-27470317257040096292024-02-03T13:42:00.002-07:002024-02-09T13:54:51.910-07:00February 2024 Morning Offering Prayer Intention<p>Here is the intention for this month when prayer the Morning Offering:</p><p><b style="font-family: "Open Sans";"></b></p><blockquote><span style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Open Sans"; font-size: 16px; font-weight: 700; text-align: center;">For the Terminally Ill. </span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Open Sans"; font-size: 16px; text-align: center;">We pray that those with a terminal illness, and their families, receive the necessary physical and spiritual care and accompaniment.</span></blockquote><div style="text-align: left;">(UPDATE: 2/9/2024). A reflection for this intention can be found <a href="https://popesprayerusa.net/2024/02/07/for-the-terminally-ill-monthly-reflection/">here</a>.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-41774203408073479112024-01-19T20:15:00.001-07:002024-01-19T20:15:00.127-07:00State (Battle) LinesThe weekend nearest January 22 is a bittersweet time for those in the pro-life movement. On the negative side, it is the remembrance of the anniversary of the 1972 Supreme Court decisions of <i>Roe v. Wade</i> and <i>Doe v. Bolton</i>, rulings that allowed for unrestricted abortions in this country. For over 50 years it has been a time of peaceful protest as well as the herculean effort to change hearts and minds. And while there have been incremental steps forward (as well as backward), the giant leap for humanity was the ruling June 24, 2022 of <i>Dobbs v. Jackson Women's Health Organization</i>, which overturned Roe's (as well as <i>Casey v. Planned Parenthood</i>) "settled precedent" on this most controversial subject.<div><br /></div><div>The pro-life events last year had many celebratory moments. But in the back of everybody's mind was the stark reality this SCOTUS decision, while a major victory, now made the pro-life challenge even more daunting. In fact it became at least 50 times difficult. All this did was now return the legal question to the states. (Nor has it entirely stopped the federal government's attempts to enshrine this so-called right into law on a national level.)</div><div><br /></div><div>In the over 18 months since <i>Dobbs</i> took effect, the battles have increased and intensified in individual state legislatures, courts, and ballot boxes. And it is easier to keep score. Progress or regression has more measurables now--the passing of laws, rulings, or constitutional amendments at the state level. But the color representing those achievements still remains the same. Unfortunately, depending on your political persuasion, the country can still be colored red or blue regarding this. It is just becoming more clearer which hue goes where.</div><div><br /></div><div>What does this mean for the pro-life movement? In a sense, it is still more of the same. The changing of hearts and minds continues. Limited resources are more stretched. There are more threats of violence to those whose voices are raised loud enough to be effectively heard. And there is still the bully pulpit that is 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue in Washington, DC, where the current occupant has perhaps staked his entire political career (some of a religious nature would opine at the cost of his soul) on cementing his legacy with this issue.</div><div><br /></div><div>The response is still the same. More prayer and fasting (for this is a spiritual battle as well); more speaking the truth in love (for the opposition is still winning the war of words); more grassroots efforts (for this is where the pro-life movement is most effective); more visible signs of support for not only mother (and father?) and child but those who have been scarred by this act (for true compassion is shown in loving deeds). This is what we do best: offer authentic hope and love.</div><div><br /></div><div>We are 366 days from inaugurating the next President of the United States. But we can't be assured of that person's support; we have seen what the political tides do to this issue. We still have to pray as if it were up to God and work as if it were up to us.</div><div><br /></div><div>And both are right to do.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-78491018949206089942024-01-17T17:57:00.000-07:002024-01-17T17:57:04.222-07:00January 2024 Morning Offering Prayer Intention<p>Here is the intention for this month when prayer the Morning Offering:</p><p><b style="font-family: "Open Sans";"></b></p><blockquote><span style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Open Sans"; font-size: 16px; font-weight: 700; text-align: center;">For the Gift of Diversity in the Church. </span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Open Sans"; font-size: 16px; text-align: center;">We pray that the Holy Spirit may help us to recognize the gift of different charisms within the Christian community and to discover the richness of different traditions and rituals in the Catholic Church.</span></blockquote><div>A reflection for this intention can be found <a href="https://popesprayerusa.net/2024/01/03/for-the-gift-of-diversity-in-the-church/">here</a>.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-57270669868783047192024-01-03T15:00:00.001-07:002024-01-03T15:00:00.126-07:00Every Knee Should Bend<blockquote class="tr_bq">
Christ Jesus, though he was in the form of God, did not regard equality with God something to be grasped. Rather, he emptied himself, taking the form of a slave, coming in human likeness; and found human in appearance, he humbled himself, becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. Because of this, God greatly exalted him and bestowed on him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bend, of those in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. </blockquote>
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In my 2016 Christmas Eve Reflection, using this passage as a focal point for a phrase, I had wondered if people have forgotten that Jesus is God. With at least 70% of the faithful not believing in the Real Presence (depending on the poll you have seen), it is no wonder why one may see such casual, if not irreverent behavior, during Communion. Many people, using <i>lex orandi, lex credendi</i> as a starting point, question the posture of standing and receiving the Sacred Host on the hand versus kneeling and receiving on the tongue, saying this contributes to the lack of reverence.<br />
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I made mention I genuflect as I pass by the Tabernacle outside of Mass, praying the "Jesus Prayer" as I pause there. I also bow my head at the mention of the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and during the recitation of the Gloria Patri, as is/was customary. I do that to remind me of the very thing I decry, to give witness to the fact that He is here among us.<br />
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Today is the Feast of the Holy Name of Jesus. You may not see it on your calendar, as it was seemingly removed and then restored. In keeping with a positive take on the 2nd. Commandment, there are two prayers you can use to honor "the name which is above every name."<br />
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The first is one of the six officially approved litanies of the Church. The Litany of the Holy Name invokes titles associated with Jesus. A partial indulgence is gained for its recitation. <br />
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V. Lord, have mercy on us.<br />
<i>R. Christ, have mercy on us.</i><br />
V. Lord, have mercy on us. Jesus, hear us.<br />
<i>R. Jesus, graciously hear us.</i><br />
V. God the Father of Heaven<br />
<i>R. Have mercy on us.</i> <br />
V. God the Son, Redeemer of the world,<br />
<i>R. Have mercy on us.</i><br />
V. God the Holy Spirit,<br />
<i>R. Have mercy on us.</i><br />
V. Holy Trinity, one God,<br />
<i>R. Have mercy on us.</i><br />
V. Jesus, Son of the living God,<br />
<i>R. Have mercy on us.</i><br />
Jesus, splendor of the Father, [<i>etc.</i>]<br />
Jesus, brightness of eternal light.<br />
Jesus, King of glory.<br />
Jesus, sun of justice.<br />
Jesus, Son of the Virgin Mary.<br />
Jesus, most amiable.<br />
Jesus, most admirable.<br />
Jesus, the mighty God.<br />
Jesus, Father of the world to come.<br />
Jesus, angel of great counsel.<br />
Jesus, most powerful.<br />
Jesus, most patient.<br />
Jesus, most obedient.<br />
Jesus, meek and humble of heart.<br />
Jesus, lover of chastity.<br />
Jesus, lover of us.<br />
Jesus, God of peace.<br />
Jesus, author of life.<br />
Jesus, example of virtues.<br />
Jesus, zealous lover of souls.<br />
Jesus, our God.<br />
Jesus, our refuge.<br />
Jesus, father of the poor.<br />
Jesus, treasure of the faithful.<br />
Jesus, good Shepherd.<br />
Jesus, true light.<br />
Jesus, eternal wisdom.<br />
Jesus, infinite goodness.<br />
Jesus, our way and our life.<br />
Jesus, joy of Angels.<br />
Jesus, King of the Patriarchs.<br />
Jesus, Master of the Apostles.<br />
Jesus, teacher of the Evangelists.<br />
Jesus, strength of Martyrs.<br />
Jesus, light of Confessors.<br />
Jesus, purity of Virgins.<br />
Jesus, crown of Saints.<br />
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V. Be merciful, <i>R. spare us, O Jesus.</i><br />
V. Be merciful, <i>R. graciously hear us, O Jesus.</i><br />
V. From all evil, <i>R. deliver us, O Jesus.</i><br />
From all sin, <i>deliver us, O Jesus.</i><br />
From Your wrath, [<i>etc.</i>]<br />
From the snares of the devil.<br />
From the spirit of fornication.<br />
From everlasting death.<br />
From the neglect of Your inspirations.<br />
By the mystery of Your holy Incarnation.<br />
By Your Nativity.<br />
By Your Infancy.<br />
By Your most divine Life.<br />
By Your labors.<br />
By Your agony and passion.<br />
By Your cross and dereliction.<br />
By Your sufferings.<br />
By Your death and burial.<br />
By Your Resurrection.<br />
By Your Ascension.<br />
By Your institution of the most Holy Eucharist.<br />
By Your joys.<br />
By Your glory.<br />
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V. Lamb of God, who takest away the sins of the world,<br />
<i>R. spare us, O Jesus.</i><br />
V. Lamb of God, who takest away the sins of the world,<br />
<i>R. graciously hear us, O Jesus.</i><br />
V. Lamb of God, who takest away the sins of the world,<br />
<i>R. have mercy on us, O Jesus.</i><br />
V. Jesus, hear us.<br />
<i>R. Jesus, graciously hear us.</i><br />
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Let us pray.<br />
O Lord Jesus Christ, You have said, "Ask and you shall receive, seek, and you shall find, knock, and it shall be opened to you." Grant, we beg of You, to us who ask it, the gift of Your most divine love, that we may ever love You with our whole heart, in word and deed, and never cease praising You.<br />
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Give us, O Lord, as much a lasting fear as a lasting love of Your Holy Name, for You, who live and are King for ever and ever, never fail to govern those whom You have solidly established in Your love.<br />
R. Amen.<br />
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The other is a very familiar prayer at the Exposition of the Blessed Sacrament. The Divine Praises are recited as the Sacred Host is being returned to the tabernacle. It can also be used to make reparations for blasphemy and profane language. <br />
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Blessed be God.<br />
Blessed be His Holy Name. <br />
Blessed be Jesus Christ, true God and true Man.<br />
Blessed be the Name of Jesus.<br />
Blessed be His Most Sacred Heart.<br />
Blessed be His Most Precious Blood.<br />
Blessed be Jesus in the Most Holy Sacrament of the Altar.<br />
Blessed be the Holy Spirit, the Paraclete.<br />
Blessed be the great Mother of God, Mary most Holy.<br />
Blessed be her Holy and Immaculate Conception.<br />
Blessed be her Glorious Assumption.<br />
Blessed be the Name of Mary, Virgin and Mother.<br />
Blessed be St. Joseph, her most chaste spouse.<br />
Blessed be God in His Angels and in His Saints.<br />
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Perhaps one or both of these can be your New Year's resolution in terms of the spiritual life.<br />
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Originally posted 1/3/2017.<br />
Re-posted 1/3/2018. <br />
Re-posted 1/3/2019.<div>Re-posted 1/3/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 1/3/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 1/3/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-53841706889215879012024-01-01T09:00:00.001-07:002024-01-01T09:00:00.125-07:00Hail, Theotokis!<a href="http://www.crystalinks.com/theotokos.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://www.crystalinks.com/theotokos.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; height: 351px; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center; width: 270px;" /></a><br />
Fish Eaters presents the <a href="http://fisheaters.com/akathisthymn.html">Akathis Hymn to the Blessed Virgin Mary</a>.<br />
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Originally posted 1/1/2011.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2014.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2015.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2016.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2017.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2018. <br />
Re-posted 1/1/2019.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Re-posted 1/1/2020.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Re-posted 1/1/2021.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Re-posted 1/1/2022.</div><div style="text-align: left;">Re-posted 1/1/2023.</div>
Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-37888092694249076592024-01-01T08:00:00.000-07:002024-01-01T08:00:00.126-07:00Another New Year's IndulgenceFor those of you who were unable to gain the indulgence from singing "Te Deum" last night, fear not.<br />
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You have another opportunity today.<br />
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Singing the hymn "Veni, Creator Spiritus", as it does on Pentecost Sunday, also carries with it a plenary indulgence, under the usual conditions.<br />
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You will find the words and a familiar translation <a href="http://awingandaprayer.blogspot.com/2015/05/hymn-for-pentecost.html">here</a>.<br />
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Originally posted 1/1/2016.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2017.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2018. <br />
Re-posted 1/1/2019.<div>Re-posted 1/1/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 1/1/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 1/1/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 1/1/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-1167623423312026522024-01-01T07:00:00.000-07:002024-01-01T07:00:00.127-07:00Perpetual Resolution<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger/3787/1586/1600/311054/333333471.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img alt="" border="0" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger/3787/1586/400/17822/333333471.jpg" style="cursor: pointer; display: block; margin: 0px auto 10px; text-align: center;" /></a><br />
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Originally posted 1/1/2007.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2013.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2014.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2015.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2016.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2017.<br />
Re-posted 1/1/2018. <br />
Re-posted 1/1/2019.<div>Re-posted 1/1/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 1/1/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 1/1/2022.</div><div>Re-posted 1/1/2023.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-43926019215026987762023-12-31T22:00:00.044-07:002023-12-31T22:00:00.132-07:00After The Countdown<div style="text-align: left;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://experiencefreemansd.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/02/Happy-New-Year-2024.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="449" data-original-width="800" height="360" src="https://experiencefreemansd.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/02/Happy-New-Year-2024.png" width="640" /></a></div><br /><span style="text-align: justify;">You know what my 2023 has been like. I have heard other people mention it wasn't a very good year for them. So be glad that we literally and figuratively can turn the page and start fresh. Let the words of the Scottish poet Robert Burns remind us to remember, but not repeat, the past:</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="text-align: justify;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="text-align: justify;">Should auld acquaintance be forgot,</span></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">And never brought to mind?</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Should auld acquaintance be forgot,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">And auld lang syne?</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne, my dear,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">And surely ye'll be your pint-stowp,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">And surely I'll be mine!</div><div style="text-align: justify;">And we'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne.</div></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne, my dear,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,</div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">We twa hae run about the braes,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">And pu'd the gowans fine;</div><div style="text-align: justify;">But we've wandered mony a weary fit</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Sin' auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne, my dear,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">We twa hae paidled i' the burn,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Frae morning sun till dine;</div><div style="text-align: justify;">But seas between us braid hae roared</div><div style="text-align: justify;">Sin' auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne, my dear,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">And there's a hand, my trusty fiere,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">And gie's a hand o' thine!</div><div style="text-align: justify;">And we'll tak a right guid-willie waught</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne, my dear,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne, </div><div style="text-align: justify;">We'll tak a cup o' kindness yet,</div><div style="text-align: justify;">For auld lang syne.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">May God bless you abundantly in 2024. May you keep Him close to you the next 12 months. May He bestow upon you every grace you need when you seek Him.</div></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Happy New Year, Everybody!</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-4247297534074864632023-12-31T21:54:00.001-07:002023-12-31T21:54:00.132-07:00The Best New Year's Hymn<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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New Advent <a href="http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/14468c.htm" target="_blank">provides the background</a> to this hymn.<br />
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The website FishEaters.com provided the Latin and English.<br />
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From <u>The Handbook of Indulgences</u>:<br />
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A partial indulgence is granted the Christian faithful who recite the hymn, <i>Te Deum</i>, as an act of thanksgiving. The indulgence will be a plenary one if this hymn is publicly recited on the last day of the year.</blockquote>
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Te Deum laudamus: te Dominum confitemur.<br />
Te aeternum Patrem omnis terra veneratur.<br />
Tibi omnes Angeli; tibi Caeli et universae Potestates;<br />
Tibi Cherubim et Seraphim incessabili voce proclamant:<br />
Sanctus, Sanctus, Sanctus, Dominus Deus Sabaoth.<br />
Pleni sunt caeli et terra maiestatis gloriae tuae.<br />
Te gloriosus Apostolorum chorus,<br />
Te Prophetarum laudabilis numerus,<br />
Te Martyrum candidatus laudat exercitus.<br />
Te per orbem terrarum sancta confitetur Ecclesia,<br />
Patrem immensae maiestatis:<br />
Venerandum tuum verum et unicum Filium;<br />
Sanctum quoque Paraclitum Spiritum.<br />
Tu Rex gloriae, Christe.<br />
Tu Patris sempiternus es Filius.<br />
Tu ad liberandum suscepturus hominem, non horruisti Virginis uterum.<br />
Tu, devicto mortis aculeo, aperuisti credentibus regna caelorum.<br />
Tu ad dexteram Dei sedes, in gloria Patris.<br />
Iudex crederis esse venturus.<br />
Te ergo quaesumus, tuis famulis subveni: quos pretioso sanguine redemisti.<br />
Aeterna fac cum sanctis tuis in gloria numerari.<br />
Salvum fac populum tuum, Domine, et benedic hereditati tuae!<br />
Et rege eos, et extolle illos usque in aeternum.<br />
Per singulos dies benedicimus te.<br />
Et laudamus nomen tuum in saeculum, et in saeculum saeculi.<br />
Dignare, Domine, die isto sine peccato nos custodire.<br />
Miserere nostri, Domine, miserere nostri.<br />
Fiat misericordia tua, Domine, super nos, quemadmodum speravimus in te.<br />
In te, Domine, speravi: non confundar in aeternum.<br />
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V. Benedictus es, Domine, Deus patrum nostrorum.<br />
R. Et laudabilis, et gloriosus in saecula.<br />
V. Benedicamus Patrem et Filium, cum Santo Spiritu.<br />
R. Laudemus et superexaltemus eum in saecula. <br />
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O God, we praise Thee: we acknowledge Thee to be the Lord.<br />
Thee, the Father, all the earth doth worship.<br />
To Thee all the Angels, the Heavens and all the Powers,<br />
To Thee the Cherubim and Seraphim cry out without ceasing:<br />
Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God of Hosts!<br />
Full are the Heavens and the earth of the majesty of Thy glory.<br />
The glorious choir of the Apostles praises Thee,<br />
The admirable company of Prophets praises Thee,<br />
The white-robed army of Martyrs, praise Thee.<br />
Thee, the Holy Church throughout the world doth confess:<br />
The Father of infinite Majesty;<br />
Thy adorable, true and only Son;<br />
Also the Holy Ghost, the Comforter.<br />
Thou, O Christ, are the King of glory!<br />
Thou art the everlasting Son of the Father.<br />
Thou, having taken it upon Thyself to deliver man, didst not disdain the Virgin's womb.<br />
Thou, having overcome the sting of death, hast opened to believers the Kingdom of Heaven.<br />
Thou sittest at the right hand of God, in the glory of the Father.<br />
Thou, we believe, art the Judge to come.<br />
We beseech Thee, therefore, to help Thy servants whom Thou hast redeemed with Thy Precious Blood.<br />
Make them to be numbered with Thy Saints in everlasting glory.<br />
O Lord, save Thy people, and bless Thine inheritance!<br />
And govern them, and exalt them forever.<br />
Day by day we bless Thee<br />
And we praise Thy Name forever: yea, forever and ever.<br />
Vouchsafe, O Lord, this day to keep us without sin.<br />
Have mercy on us, O Lord, have mercy on us.<br />
Let Thy mercy, O Lord, be upon us, for we have trusted in Thee.<br />
O Lord, in Thee I have trusted; let me not be confounded forever.</div>
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V. Blessed art Thou, O Lord, the God of our fathers.<br />
R. And worthy to be praised and glorified for ever.<br />
V. Let us bless the Father and the Son, with the Holy Ghost.<br />
R. Let us praise and magnify Him for ever.<br />
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Originally posted 12/31/2011.<br />
Re-posted 12/31/2012.<br />
Re-posted 12/31/2013.<br />
Re-posted 12/31/2014.<br />
Re-posted 12/31/2015.<br />
Re-posted 12/31/2016.<br />
Re-posted 12/31/2017. <br />
Re-posted 12/31/2018.</div><div>Re-posted 12/31/2019.</div><div>Re-posted 12/31/2020.</div><div>Re-posted 12/31/2021.</div><div>Re-posted 12/31/2022.</div>
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Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-69788214321258039312023-12-31T21:00:01.698-07:002024-02-14T11:06:21.230-07:00The World Turned Upside Down<div style="text-align: left;"><span>It is an observation of mine there seems to be one event in a person's life which overshadows and somewhat defines it. For me, it was simply called <a href="https://awingandaprayer.blogspot.com/2006/11/move.html">"The Move"</a>. That is not to say other events cannot compete for that ignominious crown, but they can be jewels in it. There was <a href="https://awingandaprayer.blogspot.com/2006/12/flashback.html">2006</a>, where the threat of homelessness gave way to the glory of God. There was <a href="https://awingandaprayer.blogspot.com/2007/12/breaking-silence-part-i.html">2007</a>, when I was uprooted and transplanted. But the most ugliest time of my life has taken place within these past twelve months.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span>I think most of your have met Catherine Garcia. She is the one who took me in some 16 years ago. This year's review revolves around what has happened to her and, by causation, to me.</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: red;"><b><br /></b></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: red;"><b>Janus' Ugly Face</b></span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span style="color: red;"><b><br /></b></span></div><div style="text-align: left;">The new calendar year actually didn't start very well for either Catherine or me, as we both contracted the latest strain of COVID-19 on December 30. My symptoms were mild (more to me like a moderate head cold), but recovery was longer than I wanted. It took about two weeks before I tested negative.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Then on January 14, a not so insignificant event occurred. Catherine was feeding the three cats we had their evening portion of wet cat food. She called to me into from master bedroom where they lived, "Ron, I think Willow is dead." I rushed in, and she asked me to look under the bed. There he was, a 14 year old male Ragdoll who had lost a lot of weight the past few years, rigor mortis already happening; he had died sometime during the day. The following Monday, having put him in a freezer over the weekend to preserve him, he joined the rest of the pets in our makeshift columbaria for them.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Then on January 30, another not so insignificant event occurred. Zoe, the Labrador-Border Collie mix Catherine received as a Christmas present eight years ago, was having significant trouble urinating over the previous weekend. While she had a history of urinary tract infections, this was much more serious. We took her to the vet mid-morning; an x-ray revealed a cancerous tumor growing around her bladder, severely restricting the ureters and urethra. We then took a trip to an urgent care clinic in another city early that afternoon, where a more detailed x-ray confirmed the previous diagnosis.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">We were presented with three options. One was to catheterize her, but that would only alleviate symptoms. The second was surgery, but that only promised a limited extension of life for a cost which was unaffordable. I think everybody knows what the third was. And while their were times that day Zoe exhibited her energetic self, she was in a lot of pain. It was still a difficult choice, but euthanasia was the one made. Add more cremains to the collection.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">But on January 27, a very significant event occurred. For the first time in 14 years, Catherine had a seizure around 1:05 PM, just as I was ready to leave for crossing guard duties. The 911 response was quick, but 30 minutes after the first, she had a second, just as the paramedics were wheeling her to the ambulance. I called my supervisor and informed her of the situation (letting her know I couldn't make this shift), then went to Catherine's workplace and informed her boss of the situation, they went to the emergency room. Once stabilized, we came home later that night.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><b><span style="color: red;">The Bad News Items</span></b></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The last MRI Catherine before this latest episode had revealed the location of the cause of her seizures, the meninges above her right ear. The MRI taken a month later after her last seizures was able to give greater detail. They revealed it was not meningioma causing them.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">It was a brain tumor. In those 14 years between images it had grown and became able to overcome the seizure medication she originally was taking. The surgery to remove it, an option back then, was now a necessity. Her medical care was now under the auspices of the Huntsman Cancer Institute at the University of Utah.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Meanwhile, while I had changed locations at my position as a school crossing guard in March, the situation at the amusement park also changed. I started the year as a supervisor again. The staff was being challenged to get to know the attendants better, starting by memorizing names and faces. The perception I had, whether or not it was correct, was that knowledge was to be instantaneously retained and summoned upon command. During a shift in April, I wasn't doing it, and I was starting to freeze. After a few discussions with my manager and some time to reflect, I returned my supervisor badge and remained on staff as an attendant.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">That was just a tremor. Little did I know the earthquake was coming. And, in a sense, the title of this post.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><b><span style="color: red;">The Unmerry Month Of May</span></b></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The surgery to remove the tumor was May 5. It just so happen I was scheduled for jury duty the same day; however, a phone call the day before informed me I didn't have to report. In any case, Catherine and I agreed I didn't need to be in the waiting room while she was in surgery.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The operation was successful; the surgeon was able to remove all of it save for a few tendrils which would require radiation and chemotherapy to minimize if not eliminate. I visited her later that afternoon after the operation, stuck in my head the following afternoon as she was sleeping, and spent a couple of hours with her Sunday night.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">The biopsy came back a few days later. It revealed it was a Grade 4 tumor, the equivalent of Stage 4 cancer. During a pre-operation consultation, that prognosis was given an estimated life expectancy of five years.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Catherine is having none of that. She is determined to see her grandchildren graduate from high school, and the youngest is three years old. Encouraged by stories of people who survived at least that long, it gave all some hope.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">But it was the weekend of the surgery when my problems started. I am not going to get into any details, lest I be accused of detraction. Catherine's two adult daughters, for reasons only known to them, turned on me. They claimed I didn't love and cared for their mother and was basically being parasitical. They were making my life a living hell, especially the younger one, with threats of all types, most of all the threat to evict me from the house, seemingly by any means necessary. If they were, I couldn't call their bluff; I had to take them seriously, even though it seems they were taking the modern tact of making me defend every story they would create.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">It created lots of stress. It created even more fear. After three weeks of this kind of harassment, perhaps crossing the line into bullying, the pressure finally got to me. During this time I was in contact with my sister, explaining the situation to her. She agreed to let me live with her temporarily.</div><div><br /></div><div><span style="color: red;"><b>The Flight Into Egypt</b></span></div><div><br /></div><div>I formally resigned my position at the amusement park. I packed most everything I had, save for clothes, into storage and left for the Midwest where my sister lives the Friday before Memorial Day, arriving the following evening. After taking the holiday weekend to unwind a little, I restarted the job search.</div><div><br /></div><div>The good news was there was more opportunities; I cast my net into a deeper job market. The obstacle was now a disconnect between where I worked and where I was living. The bad news was the results were still the same--nearly no interest, hardly any interviews, and almost no job offers</div><div><br /></div><div>There were two. In late June, I was offered a position as a dealer at a nearby casino, but after 30 minutes of shuffling half a dozen decks at one time as part of training, my elbow tendonitis was telling me this wasn't going to work. I actually did accept an offer to work as a clerk at a 24/7 truck stop, but then got cold feet and changed my mind. (The thing about that was the Sunday before I was hired, I was assisting at Mass in the same city where the truck stop was located. A parishioner came up to me after Mass and said, "You belong here. God bless you." Did I ignore God's voice?)</div><div><br /></div><div>It was this action plus another incident which put an end to my stay. My sister had put me on a short leash, reminding me this arrangement was temporary and pushing me to take anything. While she was generous enough, I violated what trust she had in me. And I had no argument.</div><div><br /></div><div>I also had just enough money to do what I did next.</div><div><br /></div><div>I went back to Utah.</div><div><br /></div><div><b><span style="color: red;">The Return Of The Prodigal</span></b> </div><div><br /></div><div>I returned the first weekend in August, following the same timeline as when I left. I spent the weekend in a motel room, thanks to the generosity of the Grand Knight of my local Knights of Columbus Council (of which I am a member), With the aid of the Council, I started living in a long-term motel the following Monday. I was able to return to the amusement park and started work there Tuesday. Since I never officially resigned, I also still had my crossing guard position when school started later that month. I had income, though very limited. </div><div><br /></div><div>When I wasn't working, I continue to search for a full-time position, either at a state unemployment office a short walk from my temporary home or the computers from the county library branches. Toward the end of August, I accepted what I though was a full-time position at a local office of a national testing center. I had investigated a couple of apartments I thought I could afford. It looked like I was starting to turn a corner.</div><div><br /></div><div>My brother Knights had helped as much as they could. My stay in the hotel would end on the last day of August. I paid for an extra three nights to get me through Labor Day. </div><div><br /></div><div>A week before the first rehearsal with the church choir with which I sing, I sent them an e-mail, briefly explaining my absence. I wrote near the end, "God is close to resolving my issues. I just have to get through September."</div><div><br /></div><div>Little did I know I picked the wrong Latin prefix for the "-ber".</div><div><br /></div><div><span style="color: red;"><b>Mobile Home</b></span></div><div><br /></div><div>After onboarding and orientation with my new job, the manager dropped a bombshell. While the position was advertised as full-time, she was only able to give me 20 hours a week at the most. She was also was not willing to work around my hours as a crossing guard. With the office a 30 minute drive from where I was, I kept the bird in hand; I resigned that job after three days.</div><div><br /></div><div>But I had a bigger problem. I couldn't afford my room anymore. I only had one solution, as there was no one I knew who would house me.</div><div><br /></div><div>My car became my home. For the next two months, my life took on a routine which allowed me to survive. Between 9:00 and 10:00 PM, I parked in the driveway of a neighbor who lived two doors east of Catherine's house, an area where I would be safe. (In talking to him later, he knew I was there, anyway.) The back seat became my bed; sleeping was in fits. Leaving around 6:00 AM every morning, I utilized a very gracious offer. The amusement park also had a campground with modern shower facilities; my manager made an arrangement with the campground manager to let me use them. I made sure I was in and out by 7:00 AM so as to not draw attention to myself. The cycle of work and job search continued, now with more urgency.</div><div><br /></div><div>There had to be that sense. On October 25, the first snowfall occurred, a warning to me winter would soon be here. On October 29, the amusement park closed for the year, leaving me without that financial and hygienic asset.</div><div><br /></div><div>Needless to say, I was very scared.</div><div><br /></div><div>Then God said, "Fear not. Your vindication is at hand. Your prayers are answered."</div><div><br /></div><div><b><span style="color: red;">Back From The Brink</span></b></div><div><br /></div><div>The first step was gaining a roof over my head. The landlady of one of the apartments in which I was interested had a room for rent in the same house. Security deposit, first month's rent (thanks to the generosity of a husband and wife who also sang in the choir), and proof of rental insurance later, I moved in on November 2. I spent the night before in a motel, gratefully knowing I would be off the street soon.</div><div><br /></div><div>I needed a back-up plan to replace the income from the amusement park. That plan came to fruition when a local family amusement center hired me. I would get enough hours at the same rate as the amusement park to keep me at the same income level.</div><div><br /></div><div>I didn't need the backup plan (although I am still on staff and squeezing in shifts when I can), I finally gained the coveted full-time position I was seeking. On the third attempt, I finally was able to land a position with a locally owned grocery store, primarily as a cashier, secondarily as a courtesy clerk (i.e. grocery bagger). Now I could safely give up my hours as a crossing guard, although I remain on staff as a substitute and am getting as many shifts as my schedule allows and as needed to cover zones.</div><div><br /></div><div><b><span style="color: red;">Epilogue</span></b></div><div><br /></div><div>I don't think it will be possible to return to Catherine's house. The situation between her daughters and I is seemingly irreparable. While she still wants my companionship, the feud with her daughters is making it almost impossible to continue any kind of relationship. The stress cause by all this does not help Catherine's well being, as her doctors want her to reduce it as much as possible.</div><div><br /></div><div>As of this post, Catherine's tumor is in remission. She is currently undergoing a cycle of chemotherapy, seemingly keeping the tendrils under control. However, the tumor was located in a part of the brain which controls her vision; unfortunately, she is almost legally blind. As with any brain injury, her mental acuity waxes and wanes; patience is required when interacting with her. The regimen of chemotherapy leaves her fatigued. Her personality has been muted by all this. But she is fighting this. And right now, she is winning.</div><div><br /></div><div><span style="color: red;"><b>Aftermath</b></span></div><div><br /></div><div>Between the stress of this situation, not eating enough, and not eating well, I lost 25-30 pounds and 2-3 inches off my waist line. Not the best way to get to a more healthier weight, I admit. Now the challenge will be to maintain it.</div><div><br /></div><div>I have returned to a more active role with my Council. I became a "silent Knight" during the COVID-19 pandemic, mostly due to the leadership style at that time. It is the least I can do to show my gratitude and appreciation for their help, including on September 30 the removal of the deck in the back of the house that had collapsed due to the passage of time.</div><div><br /></div><div>I did return to the choir for the first rehearsal. I also recently returned to my duties as a cantor at my home parish in December. It's another way I'm reconnecting with society.</div><div><br /></div><div>I am doing OK with my new employer. All I ask from me is to keep improving. As my own worst critic, I am not sure how well I am performing.</div><div><br /></div><div>But the most important thing that happened was my own Eucharistic Revival. On the Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe, I finally was able to worthily receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation for the first time in 16 years. My situation wouldn't allow me until recently to have firm purpose of amendment, the necessary condition required for forgiveness. And at Mass that night as part of a parish celebration, I literally did "taste and see the goodness of the Lord". </div><div><br /></div><div>His goodness had been with me all along this ordeal.</div><div><br /></div><div><span style="color: red;"><b>What's Next</b></span></div><div><br /></div><div>I was working December 21 as a courtesy clerk. As I was assisting a customer, I looked up and saw a former supervisor from the amusement park, five years removed. It was someone I thought I would never see again because she was moving on with her life. We briefly conversed. I asked her if she had heeded the advice I had given her, as she was wrestling with some inner turmoil. When I reminded her what I said, she briefly explained she had.</div><div><br /></div><div>And what did I say way back when?</div><div><br /></div><div>"Reclaim you."</div><div><br /></div><div>(Is this why we crossed paths?)</div><div><br /></div><div>It is now a case of "physician, heal yourself'". While the journey to recovery started last month, it still needs definition. The financial side is obvious. But it is my inner being which has been shaken to its very core. My psyche feels battered, bruised, bloodied, broken. All types of doubts and fears seem to be haunting me even more than usual, even as I start to dream again. The trauma of the past twelve months has made me ask if I need mental health therapy. While prayer will be the cornerstone, I wonder if counseling wouldn't be a worthwhile idea.</div><div><br /></div><div>Speaking of which, please add or keep Catherine and me in your prayers for a while. Ask God for healing and the grace to bear our crosses. They are a part of my petitions.</div><div><br /></div><div>And so ends this review of 2023. The lyrics from the song " So This Is Christmas " by John Lennon sums up my hope and focus:</div><div><br /></div><div>"Have a very Merry Christmas</div><div>And a Happy New Year!</div><div>Let's hope it's a good one</div><div>Without any fear."</div><div><br /></div><div>Go Forward. Be Bold.</div><div><br /></div><div>Reclaim me.</div><div><br /></div><div>Amen.</div>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16651107.post-55586396715576659472023-12-25T08:00:00.035-07:002023-12-25T08:00:00.128-07:002023 Christmas Card<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://uploads2.wikiart.org/images/rembrandt/nativity-1654.jpg!Blog.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="404" data-original-width="500" height="404" src="https://uploads2.wikiart.org/images/rembrandt/nativity-1654.jpg!Blog.jpg" width="500" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><i>Nativity</i> (1654)</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;">by Rembrandt van Rijn (1606-1699)</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: x-small;"><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: left;">May the newborn Savior of the world bring joy, peace, and love to you and yours. May the Infant Jesus dwell in you and guide your life. May the Christ Child bring you abundant blessings in the coming year.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">Merry Christmas, Everybody!</div><p></p>Ron Rollinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15496407277695910607noreply@blogger.com0